if you aren't considering suicide you aren't paying enough attention
blood and pain and scars and misery. it's sexual.
i think you need to suffer to be able to create art. i am especially fond of sylvia plath and marya hornbacher. people consider me a masochist. which suits me well.
other than that i am currently a nursestudent. nursingstudent. whatever you wish to call it. but really all i want to study is medicine.